I do not know what I am doing. Sometimes I roll out of bed and think I do not have my shit together. I scroll on social media comparing myself to girls my age who seem to “have it all” and wonder what do I need to change about myself to be like that? Hang on. I actually do have the answer here. One sec. Oh yeah. NOTHING. You do realise that whilst you’re letting your brain spiral into a million and one new career paths and workout plans and skincare rituals and saving habits and business ideas and social media captions…there is someone stood right next to you who is looking at you with so much admiration. Looking at your life through their eyes and thinking this bitch knows what she is talking about. FYI nobody does. Yes, I have this blog. My baby. My pride and joy that I love so much. I recently became the positivity ambassador at work. Yes, I preach self-love and owning your body and everything about yourself but does that mean I am ALWAYS positive and confident? ABSOLUTELY NOT. I am a human being. It’s what we do hunnies. We feel emotion. We compare. We self-sabotage. We focus on our flaws because that’s the thing we want to change. Nobody has their shit together. If they do, THEY ARE LYING. Having your shit together does not exist. All you can do is be your best self with what you have to offer that day. You’re 100% does not have to be consistent across the whole week. Things happen that cause your “best” to be altered slightly and that is okay.
I want to let you all know that I have not had the best week and I am just accepting that. If we had good days ALL THE TIME we wouldn’t appreciate them as much. My anxiety has been SKY HIGH and I have been beating myself up constantly about so many different things. My posture has been DREADFUL because I’ve been tensing my shoulders. I’ve been popping my spots daily because of stress and then feeling down when my skin isn’t clear. Lol. Sometimes it just starts to build from one thing to another and you feel like at any moment you could just burst into tears. Yes, that did happen btw (at work lol) What I mean to say is, you may see my social media and think I’m having a great time all the time, which is just not the case. Remind yourself that feeling down is such a normal HUMAN emotion that you should never feel ashamed of.
I want to end on the things that have brought me JOY this week and what I am looking forward to:
RUNNING. I love it so much at the moment and I can’t WAIT to continue with it. I ran 3K on Tuesday. Squeal.
PINTEREST. Where would I be without it?
OLIVIA RODRIGO. Next week baby! Omg I am so excited.
MANIFESTING FOR MY CAREER. Sometimes we have to be a little delu-lu and that is SO FUN.
PLANNING FUN THINGS WITH MY GIRLS. Xox.
MY ERA’S TOUR OUTFIT. I can’t wait to get working on it. Updates to follow...
Okay. I’m going to sign off and wind down. My brain is whirling and I need a glass of wine.
I am sending you so much love, we will always make it out the other side. I promise.
Big love ALWAYS,
Lucy Xox
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