I’ve found myself this week getting so caught up in what everyone else is doing. How many roles people are booking. Comparing my talent to other people’s. Am I working hard enough? Am I presenting myself well? Do I have what it takes to make it big? Am I ever going to get my big break? What does it mean when I get cut first round? What does it mean when I make it to finals? And on, and on, and on. I feel like if someone was to make a jukebox musical about my life it would be done with Olivia Rodrigo songs. Pretty much the lyrics to Jealousy Jealousy is how I’ve been feeling this past week. It’s almost like no matter how much people tell me you’re doing great, you’re so pretty, your eyebrows look amazing (btw thank you boo Got2B Glued xox) you’re so talented, I love your hair: I just cannot make myself believe it. I feel like my self-confidence comes in waves. One day, I am hyping myself up, loving my curves and boobs and other days I can’t seem to find that hype. So, here’s what I’m going to do to bring my focus back to myself and what I AM CAPABLE OF.
- JOURNALLING THAT SHIT. When I find myself feeling super overwhelmed, I love journalling my thoughts. When those worries are on a page in front of you, it makes you realise just how small those worries are. Trust me. It really works.
- CREATING. I LOVE to create (as we all are aware) but I find working on my own passion projects allows me to realise just how capable I am of producing high quality art. Writing, filming, singing, dancing in my kitchen, creating content etc. It all allows me to become so much more in tune with myself and my strengths. Channelling these strengths gives you the confidence to showcase your talent to the world. Feeling confident in your work is the best feeling.
- WATCHING ART. Whether it’s watching my favourite Netflix show, a bad-ass music video, going to the theatre, past clips of me performing and realising just how far I have come, it just INSPIRES ME. I instantly get a serotonin boost. (Current fave: Espresso by Sabrina Carpenter, the music video is like crack and I have it on repeat)
I’ve found myself comparing my performance at work to my gorgeous colleagues too, not just when it comes to my acting career. Sometimes I think I just focus on everything I’m doing WRONG as opposed to everything I’m doing RIGHT. I hate making mistakes so whenever something like that happens at work, I beat myself up soooo hard. Let’s just take a sec though to process the fact that in the nicest way possible, no-one gives a flying fuck what you’re doing. These so-called mistakes that you’re making literally don’t even exist to everyone else. Just you. Okay boo?
I hope you all know how great you’re doing. Life can be so overwhelming and I know first-hand just how hard it is to get out of the cold-comparison mindset. Comparing yourself to people you’ve never met. People on social media. People who are human-beings meaning their lives are not perfect.
Have a great Sunday my hunnies.
Big love ALWAYS,
Lucy Xxx
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